The Day That I Knew That War Was Real

The day that I knew that war was real
was a day I will never forget
aired lived on international television
2,993 deaths
murdered by our own weapons
commercial airliner jets

The day that I knew that war was real
was the day that it hit home
The day that I knew that war was real
was the day we were the target


Carina Fosse

Unconfused

I may not know who I am
but everyone else does
I love who ever I am
so please don't judge

you claim to know
people just like me
you stereo type
and choose to spite me

you don't know me at all
or care to find out
I think I have found myself
so don't make me have doubt

I am who I am
nothing more to figure out
but if you absolutly must know
I'll spit it right out

I am not in the closet!
and I'm not undecided!
I love people for people,
should I have to hide it?

I am not just confused.
I am just me!

Carina F**king Fosse

Beached

this is the life
the scene, the trends
following the stream
play hard until it ends

drifting with the tide
crashing like a wave
washed up and beaten
I am nothing to save

May-Be

May-be

Now that the love is gone
now that we've done so much wrong
now that we can't get along
now we just seem to carry on.
I don't really know
what the hell I saw in you,
actually, I do know...
but, I doubted that it was true.

My friends saw you differently
no one could see what you may-be
but may-be,
may-not-be good enough for me.

We did have so much fun,
it really was one hell of a run
our harmony, our passion, our drive
is not dead, but it may-be done.

My friends may-be right
it may-not-be real
because I seem to love you less
when your out of sight.

I know that our love was blind
I know we can't rewind
I know that we shouldn't even try
but by my nature, I feel inclined.

I am rather happy not loving you
settling with my doubts
as truths
but, there still may-be something special about you.

Yes, it's definitely over
I need this to be done
but, I can't give you the cold shoulder
or let you feel like you have won.

I will not embrace you
I will never try to disgrace you
Though my mind will hopefully displace you
but, my heart will never erase you.

So, If you ever look behind,
keep in mind that a friend like me
may-be hard to find.

I'm here for you, if you need
I truly want you to succeed
and I do hope
someday,
you may-be what I need

for you,
your son
and for me

..........may-be


Carina Fosse

There is No Oasis

blurry and surreal,

but way to lost to care

dazed in this hazy fog

my vision unclear

hoping to get through this smog

I'm sickened and I'm nautious

but there is no fresh air

sweltering sun,

heat stroke and psychosis

crawling in the dessert sands

famished and desperate

salvation is out of my hands

drained, dry and dehyrdrated

there is no oasis

there is no air

no possibilty

no chance for me to breathe

there is no oasis,

no waterfalls

no sparkly palm trees

there is no hope

there is no need for me to care

I'll never know the truth

because, there is no air

there is no going back

there are no new places

there are no more options

and there is no oasis

-Carina Fosse-

26.02.09

Stones

I know not to burn bridges,

but I still seem to clutter my paths

I know how to put out the fires,

but I'll get stuck, knee deep in ash

Every mountain I climb

is just another stone

blocking my path

my path back home

Every bump I hit

I'll bring it along

Every rock I carry

makes me strong

I pick up every pebble

every stone, every boulder

I just keep adding to the weight

the weight on my shoulders

every rock I pick up

keeps weighing me down

But I'll never let them go

even if they make me drown

My collection of stones,

my past , my story

my tradegies and triumphs

my sadness, my glory

I'm attached to my stones

I treasure my collection

what every stone represents

I have no recollection

my stones are a part of me

I cannot deny

I'll carry these stones

until the day I die

---Carina Fosse---

12.10.2008

GET OUT

Your out of my life
But still on my mind
Your this empty feeling
That will hopefully go away with time
This churning feeling at the bottom of my gut
An itchy scab formed from a tiny cut
Your out of sight
But your still all I see
Worrying about you
Still keeps me in misery
I want you out of my aching head
I’m sick of wondering if your dead

Get Out of my skull
Get Out of my mind
Get Out of my heart
Or get back in my life

I cannot be with you
I wouldn’t survive
I don’t want to see you
I just want to know that your alive
I’m sick of not knowing where you are
Except unreachable and incredibly far
Your driving me insane
You still cause me pain
When will this change?
Will you ever get out of my fucking brain?
Your constant tapping at my bone
We haven’t spoken,
but please leave me alone!

Get Out of my skull
Get Out of my mind
Get out of my heart
Or get back in my life






---> Carina Fosse

Our World Our Hate

Our World, Our Hate

A small amount of hate lies inside us all.

This hate can dwell, consume and divide us all.

You may not show it, hate is not always something you share.

Discomfort, judgement, pride and prejudice are all because of fear.

Please, Stop passing this fear to our children. Remember this hate has been taught.

It was passed down from generations of neighbors that have fought.

Hate has seperated us, slaughtered us and enslaved us.

We hate for of our god, because Satan has craved us.

Hate breeds, plagues, lingers and remains.

Hate is only passed on, so we must make a change.

Change isn't just gonna come, we have to make it happen.

Break this murderous cycle and put down our weapon.

It's a tremendous challenge to stop all the wars caused by hate,

but we can make a change, we do choose our world's fate.

Teach our children that we are all different, special and unique.

Take notice of our judgements and watch how we speak.

Embrace our cultures, our foods and our arts.

Open our minds, taste the fruits of our world and open our hearts.

If we could understand our differences and agree to disagree.

Imagine how much better our world would be.

------>Carina Fosse<------

-- March 17th, 2009 --

Smothering the Flame

Raging flames to wilted ash

That inferno could never last

Molten lava to stone cold rock

The fire in your eyes is now just dark

Our fire once burned with fury, rage and lust

Our burning passion is now dry as dust

You became too engulfed in the flame between us

But just like fire needs oxygen, we needed trust

You can’t control a fire

and it’s too hard to tame

So you suffocated me

just like the flame

In your attempts to keep this blaze alive

You just put it out with all your lies

That glorious flame that sparked our fire

The emotion, the passion and the sizzling desire

You tried to protect it, but you tried too hard

Now we’re both burnt out, scorched and charred

You did all you could to save the fire we shared

But you were smothering the flame, it had no air

You cant control a fire

and it's to hard to tame

So you suffocated me

just like the flame

The fire weakened

with every tear that I cried

Slowly extinguishing the flame,

until the fire died

well... we tried

Carina Fosse

26.03.09

Armor

I can see through you
see through your lies
you put on so much armor
but it's no disguise
your secrets are buried under your flesh
to dig them up is your last wish
you never ask for pity
yet you shame yourself
ashamed of yourself
you never ask for help
the pain inside lingers like purgatory
unsettled and unresolved
an untold story

--Carina Fosse--

Across This Vast Ocean Pt. 1

Across this vast ocean, my spirit is being snatched.
I've floated away, so alone and detached.

I've crossed this ocean in an effort to move foward.
Yeah, I'm on a path, but what's that path headed toward?

Uncertainty has led me here and uncertainty draws me back.
My will keeps me here and it's to late to retract.

There is an ocean between us cluttered with wreckage.
I tell you we can cross it but you never get the message.

This ocean is tremendous and I'm on the other side.
Crossing it may seem impossible, if you've never tried.




Carina Fosse
10102007

Across this Vast Ocean pt. 2

Across this vast ocean, my spirit has been snatched.
I've floated far away, so alone and detached.

I gaze across this ocean for a glimpse of reality now lost.
My hope is shattered and this is the cost.

Saying goobye was brutal, your face was so final.
Everything was so unsettled and I left in denial.

Your blame and my guilt sinks us in this ocean.
The weight and the burden anchors me from motion.

The ocean between us becomes ever more vast.
The magic between us has become the past.

In this vast ocean hope drifts away.
In this vast ocean our love is astray.

There is something greater than this vast ocean standing in our way.
So, across this vast ocean, I will stay.





Carina Fosse
10102007