a murder of crows
suddenly blacken the desert sky
echoing squaks
omniscent warnings
what do they imply?
is something coming?
I watch the birds fly by.
A congress of ravens
now flock above me
watchful black eyes
the ravens are wise
What is it they see?
Something is coming...
I watch the birds fly by.
A wake of vultures
approach and cirlcle overhead
the message is clear
this time it's not a sign
I am already dead
Nothing is coming.
I cannot watch the birds fly by.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Monday, November 30, 2009
My Medium (A Kyrielle)
my thoughts always clutter my mind
guilty fears that I keep confined
there is no way to displace them
poetry lets me embrace them
I brood and dwell on each dark thought
collect them til I'm overwrought
write them down and then erase them
poetry lets me embrace them
my sentiments and memories
thoughts that have plagued me like disease
I have found the strength to face them
poetry lets me embrace them
my writings best when it's painful
bless my thoughts, though they are shameful
morbid thoughts, I love to chase them
poetry lets me embrace them
Carina Fosse
guilty fears that I keep confined
there is no way to displace them
poetry lets me embrace them
I brood and dwell on each dark thought
collect them til I'm overwrought
write them down and then erase them
poetry lets me embrace them
my sentiments and memories
thoughts that have plagued me like disease
I have found the strength to face them
poetry lets me embrace them
my writings best when it's painful
bless my thoughts, though they are shameful
morbid thoughts, I love to chase them
poetry lets me embrace them
Carina Fosse
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Monday, October 19, 2009
Lake Bodom
perched on the dark waters edge
my pale reflection
rippling in Lake Bodom
it's eerie past
a reflection of my own
I see my lost teenage soul
I feel a strange connection
to the horrors of this lake
the trauma that I cannot shake
since my life was altered
I've drowned in regret
my once radiant soul now seeks death
I tell my reflection to please pull me in
Pull me to Bodom's pit, Pull me in
I belong in this ravaged lake of sin
Carina Fosse
18.10.2009
my pale reflection
rippling in Lake Bodom
it's eerie past
a reflection of my own
I see my lost teenage soul
I feel a strange connection
to the horrors of this lake
the trauma that I cannot shake
since my life was altered
I've drowned in regret
my once radiant soul now seeks death
I tell my reflection to please pull me in
Pull me to Bodom's pit, Pull me in
I belong in this ravaged lake of sin
Carina Fosse
18.10.2009
Friday, October 16, 2009
Haze
My world is blurry and surreal
but I'm way to lost to care
Dazed in this hazy fog
bloodshot vision is unclear
Choking through this smog
I try to remain cautious
Searching for fresh air
I'm sickened and I'm nauseous
Why should I even care?
to breathe fresh air once more
since I engulfed myself in this haze
I forgot what the world was like before
Before I was stuck in this smoggy daze
I never appreciated fresh air
I never really acknowledged it
It was always just there
The air, I polluted it
because I didn't care at all
This pollution can't be reversed
It will choke me until I fall
Now my cloud is ready to burst
stress built up, I'm saturated.
Toxins struggle to leak out
but are stuck in this fog that I created
The pollutants. I try to let out
but they condense around me
I can never find any air
because this smog has found me.
This polluted haze around my brain
the cloud thickens and drives me insane
when will it rain?
When will I change?
Carina Fosse
15.09.2009
but I'm way to lost to care
Dazed in this hazy fog
bloodshot vision is unclear
Choking through this smog
I try to remain cautious
Searching for fresh air
I'm sickened and I'm nauseous
Why should I even care?
to breathe fresh air once more
since I engulfed myself in this haze
I forgot what the world was like before
Before I was stuck in this smoggy daze
I never appreciated fresh air
I never really acknowledged it
It was always just there
The air, I polluted it
because I didn't care at all
This pollution can't be reversed
It will choke me until I fall
Now my cloud is ready to burst
stress built up, I'm saturated.
Toxins struggle to leak out
but are stuck in this fog that I created
The pollutants. I try to let out
but they condense around me
I can never find any air
because this smog has found me.
This polluted haze around my brain
the cloud thickens and drives me insane
when will it rain?
When will I change?
Carina Fosse
15.09.2009
Thursday, September 24, 2009
He Was a Poet
He was a poet
a renaissance man to some degree
artist of spoken word,
philosopher, published novelist and emcee.
A divine inspiration
He meant the world to me
He was a character
brilliant and unique
cluttered mind, rambling thoughts
he would mumble when he would speak,
ignored and misunderstood
some saw him as a freak
He was delusional,
but he saw the world so clearly
poetic randomness,
he had a mind boggling philosophy
lost and inebriated,
he escaped from a so called reality
he was calm and tranquil
but also edgy and stressed
he was joyful,
but looking back, he may have been depressed
he'd pop an upper, down a downer
anything to fix his deep unrest
uncertain,
I must believe that he chose his death
he is missed,
much more than I ever could have guessed
he was my first love
and to have loved him I am blessed
Carina Fosse
-08-05-2009-
a renaissance man to some degree
artist of spoken word,
philosopher, published novelist and emcee.
A divine inspiration
He meant the world to me
He was a character
brilliant and unique
cluttered mind, rambling thoughts
he would mumble when he would speak,
ignored and misunderstood
some saw him as a freak
He was delusional,
but he saw the world so clearly
poetic randomness,
he had a mind boggling philosophy
lost and inebriated,
he escaped from a so called reality
he was calm and tranquil
but also edgy and stressed
he was joyful,
but looking back, he may have been depressed
he'd pop an upper, down a downer
anything to fix his deep unrest
uncertain,
I must believe that he chose his death
he is missed,
much more than I ever could have guessed
he was my first love
and to have loved him I am blessed
Carina Fosse
-08-05-2009-
Monday, September 21, 2009
My So Called Life
if I decide to live
I must do it right
I have got to stop screwing up
my so called life
I've got to create goals
and make a change for the better
instead of living life
like it's already over
Carina Fosse
I must do it right
I have got to stop screwing up
my so called life
I've got to create goals
and make a change for the better
instead of living life
like it's already over
Carina Fosse
Thursday, September 10, 2009
The Day That I Knew That War Was Real
The day that I knew that war was real
was a day I will never forget
aired lived on international television
2,993 deaths
murdered by our own weapons
commercial airliner jets
The day that I knew that war was real
was the day that it hit home
The day that I knew that war was real
was the day we were the target
Carina Fosse
was a day I will never forget
aired lived on international television
2,993 deaths
murdered by our own weapons
commercial airliner jets
The day that I knew that war was real
was the day that it hit home
The day that I knew that war was real
was the day we were the target
Carina Fosse
Labels:
current events,
evil,
free verse,
poems,
politics,
september 11th
Friday, September 4, 2009
My Truth
I always speak my truth,
I have never lied!
share too much about myself
just to prove
that I have nothing to hide
but the truth can bend,
warp and divide
I convince myself it's true
so, it is now my truth,
it is now my pride
the truth is what I cannot face
the truth is best denied
the truth is best forgotten
for my own sake
the truth is what I hide
when my truth is spoken
the truth may be implied
my truth is released
well the truth lingers and resides
the truth
is bona fide
my truth
keeps me alive
__Carina Fosse___
---01.09.2009---
I have never lied!
share too much about myself
just to prove
that I have nothing to hide
but the truth can bend,
warp and divide
I convince myself it's true
so, it is now my truth,
it is now my pride
the truth is what I cannot face
the truth is best denied
the truth is best forgotten
for my own sake
the truth is what I hide
when my truth is spoken
the truth may be implied
my truth is released
well the truth lingers and resides
the truth
is bona fide
my truth
keeps me alive
__Carina Fosse___
---01.09.2009---
Monday, July 20, 2009
My Demons
a hedonic thrill
devoted to desire
this demonic will
will soon transpire
blackened soul
disturbed mind
no control
trapped and entwined
how long will it hide?
devoted to desire
this demonic will
will soon transpire
blackened soul
disturbed mind
no control
trapped and entwined
how long will it hide?
My Dying Bride (inspiration from my favorite bands)
It Lies Beneath, buried inside and waiting to Unearth
She's Spawn from this Cradle of Filth and has been Enslaved since birth
she is a Lamb of God with a luminous beauty like Norma Jean
but when Shadows Fall, she's Sick of it All and her Poison will not go unseen
A Life Once Lost, her Hollow spirit is lost in Mayhem
Disturbed and obsessed, she awaits her chance to kill HIM
a Slayer at heart, Underoath she swears revenge on her Sworn Enemy
God Forbid that her Arch Enemy lives, because dead he may as well be
She has Poisoned the Well and dropped him in the lake of the Children of Bodom
hung by a Slipknot, Torched and In Flames, his Dark Funeral will be chosen
My Dying Bride is evil inside and stirs in her own Kingdom of Sorrow
after Blood Has Been Shed, she regains Fuel and awaits The Scars of Tomorrow
from Autumn to Ashes, time slowly passes, but her Cold heart still stirs
after 10 years then August Burns Red the moment IT occurs
that moment in August that she chose her victim and It Dies Today
the Torch in her eye, Everytime I Die I realize that I am her prey
As I Lay Dying in Pain with my open soul Bleeding Through
I catch a Sublime glimpse of her smile and understand that she chose me too
she is already dead, she is my dark ArkAngel sent to me from above
my gothic beauty, My Dying Bride and I shall Rise Against and be eternally in love
Carina Fosse11-03-09
She's Spawn from this Cradle of Filth and has been Enslaved since birth
she is a Lamb of God with a luminous beauty like Norma Jean
but when Shadows Fall, she's Sick of it All and her Poison will not go unseen
A Life Once Lost, her Hollow spirit is lost in Mayhem
Disturbed and obsessed, she awaits her chance to kill HIM
a Slayer at heart, Underoath she swears revenge on her Sworn Enemy
God Forbid that her Arch Enemy lives, because dead he may as well be
She has Poisoned the Well and dropped him in the lake of the Children of Bodom
hung by a Slipknot, Torched and In Flames, his Dark Funeral will be chosen
My Dying Bride is evil inside and stirs in her own Kingdom of Sorrow
after Blood Has Been Shed, she regains Fuel and awaits The Scars of Tomorrow
from Autumn to Ashes, time slowly passes, but her Cold heart still stirs
after 10 years then August Burns Red the moment IT occurs
that moment in August that she chose her victim and It Dies Today
the Torch in her eye, Everytime I Die I realize that I am her prey
As I Lay Dying in Pain with my open soul Bleeding Through
I catch a Sublime glimpse of her smile and understand that she chose me too
she is already dead, she is my dark ArkAngel sent to me from above
my gothic beauty, My Dying Bride and I shall Rise Against and be eternally in love
Carina Fosse11-03-09
Labels:
dark free verse,
feel good poetry,
metal,
My Dying Bride
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Unconfused
I may not know who I am
but everyone else does
I love who ever I am
so please don't judge
you claim to know
people just like me
you stereo type
and choose to spite me
you don't know me at all
or care to find out
I think I have found myself
so don't make me have doubt
I am who I am
nothing more to figure out
but if you absolutly must know
I'll spit it right out
I am not in the closet!
and I'm not undecided!
I love people for people,
should I have to hide it?
I am not just confused.
I am just me!
Carina F**king Fosse
but everyone else does
I love who ever I am
so please don't judge
you claim to know
people just like me
you stereo type
and choose to spite me
you don't know me at all
or care to find out
I think I have found myself
so don't make me have doubt
I am who I am
nothing more to figure out
but if you absolutly must know
I'll spit it right out
I am not in the closet!
and I'm not undecided!
I love people for people,
should I have to hide it?
I am not just confused.
I am just me!
Carina F**king Fosse
Labels:
Bi,
feel good poetry,
free verse,
gay,
lesbian,
LGBT,
love,
sexuality,
short and simple
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Beached
this is the life
the scene, the trends
following the stream
play hard until it ends
drifting with the tide
crashing like a wave
washed up and beaten
I am nothing to save
the scene, the trends
following the stream
play hard until it ends
drifting with the tide
crashing like a wave
washed up and beaten
I am nothing to save
Labels:
a quick thought,
beach,
free verse,
hangover,
party,
poetry
No Chance
there is no love
no dream
no chance for us to suceed
there is no oasis,
no waterfalls
no sparkly palm trees
there is no hope
no future
no you and no me
no dream
no chance for us to suceed
there is no oasis,
no waterfalls
no sparkly palm trees
there is no hope
no future
no you and no me
Friday, June 12, 2009
Conformity?
"Conformity?"
The cynics have doubt
in the good in humanity.
They are virtuous through self-control
and avoid the worlds vanity.
Skeptics just disbelieve
that predetermined knowledge is real.
Doubt political structure
and mass media appeal.
The dumb always follow
predetermined to be blind.
Never bother to question
or use their own mind.
Since we all do live
in a premeditated bureaucracy,
Do we use, understand
and practice democracy.
The freedoms we have,
the dumb just abuse.
The skeptics ands cynics
don't bother to use.
If the cynics dont react,
they remain pesismistic.
The skeptics have no answer
and remain a statistic.
Cynicalism and skeptism
can turn you numb.
Let the system mistreat you,
then your just like the dumb.
Stuck on the bottom,
trampled by a hierarchy of capitalists.
Since we are all not blind,
how can we let this exsist?
WHERE ARE ALL THE REBELS!
the renegades who won't conform?
Those on top of the structure,
will never change or transform.
Stuck on the bottom we stay.
Let the poor stay poor.
Let the dumb lead us away.
We all are blind in some way.
**Carina Fosse
The cynics have doubt
in the good in humanity.
They are virtuous through self-control
and avoid the worlds vanity.
Skeptics just disbelieve
that predetermined knowledge is real.
Doubt political structure
and mass media appeal.
The dumb always follow
predetermined to be blind.
Never bother to question
or use their own mind.
Since we all do live
in a premeditated bureaucracy,
Do we use, understand
and practice democracy.
The freedoms we have,
the dumb just abuse.
The skeptics ands cynics
don't bother to use.
If the cynics dont react,
they remain pesismistic.
The skeptics have no answer
and remain a statistic.
Cynicalism and skeptism
can turn you numb.
Let the system mistreat you,
then your just like the dumb.
Stuck on the bottom,
trampled by a hierarchy of capitalists.
Since we are all not blind,
how can we let this exsist?
WHERE ARE ALL THE REBELS!
the renegades who won't conform?
Those on top of the structure,
will never change or transform.
Stuck on the bottom we stay.
Let the poor stay poor.
Let the dumb lead us away.
We all are blind in some way.
**Carina Fosse
Tarantella
infectious anguish
embedded
through my veins
spreaded
streamlined poison
onslaught
unbearable burden
overwrought
venomous demon
inserted
innocent, corrupt
converted
infectious truth
ignored
engulfed, exhausted
absorbed
siphoned emotion
drained
dizzy dance
restrained
rythmic spirit
illusion
keep on dancing
conclusion
twirling tarantella
so pure
upbeat anti-venom,
the cure
Carina Fosse
If this makes sense to anyone let me know...
embedded
through my veins
spreaded
streamlined poison
onslaught
unbearable burden
overwrought
venomous demon
inserted
innocent, corrupt
converted
infectious truth
ignored
engulfed, exhausted
absorbed
siphoned emotion
drained
dizzy dance
restrained
rythmic spirit
illusion
keep on dancing
conclusion
twirling tarantella
so pure
upbeat anti-venom,
the cure
Carina Fosse
If this makes sense to anyone let me know...
May-Be
May-be
Now that the love is gone
now that we've done so much wrong
now that we can't get along
now we just seem to carry on.
I don't really know
what the hell I saw in you,
actually, I do know...
but, I doubted that it was true.
My friends saw you differently
no one could see what you may-be
but may-be,
may-not-be good enough for me.
We did have so much fun,
it really was one hell of a run
our harmony, our passion, our drive
is not dead, but it may-be done.
My friends may-be right
it may-not-be real
because I seem to love you less
when your out of sight.
I know that our love was blind
I know we can't rewind
I know that we shouldn't even try
but by my nature, I feel inclined.
I am rather happy not loving you
settling with my doubts
as truths
but, there still may-be something special about you.
Yes, it's definitely over
I need this to be done
but, I can't give you the cold shoulder
or let you feel like you have won.
I will not embrace you
I will never try to disgrace you
Though my mind will hopefully displace you
but, my heart will never erase you.
So, If you ever look behind,
keep in mind that a friend like me
may-be hard to find.
I'm here for you, if you need
I truly want you to succeed
and I do hope
someday,
you may-be what I need
for you,
your son
and for me
..........may-be
Carina Fosse
Now that the love is gone
now that we've done so much wrong
now that we can't get along
now we just seem to carry on.
I don't really know
what the hell I saw in you,
actually, I do know...
but, I doubted that it was true.
My friends saw you differently
no one could see what you may-be
but may-be,
may-not-be good enough for me.
We did have so much fun,
it really was one hell of a run
our harmony, our passion, our drive
is not dead, but it may-be done.
My friends may-be right
it may-not-be real
because I seem to love you less
when your out of sight.
I know that our love was blind
I know we can't rewind
I know that we shouldn't even try
but by my nature, I feel inclined.
I am rather happy not loving you
settling with my doubts
as truths
but, there still may-be something special about you.
Yes, it's definitely over
I need this to be done
but, I can't give you the cold shoulder
or let you feel like you have won.
I will not embrace you
I will never try to disgrace you
Though my mind will hopefully displace you
but, my heart will never erase you.
So, If you ever look behind,
keep in mind that a friend like me
may-be hard to find.
I'm here for you, if you need
I truly want you to succeed
and I do hope
someday,
you may-be what I need
for you,
your son
and for me
..........may-be
Carina Fosse
Friday, May 15, 2009
Orphan
If god is my father then I am an orphan.
If god is my weapon, god has no ammo.
If god is life, I'm in a coffin.
If god is my shelter, I go homeless.
If god is my power, I have a short circuit.
If god is hope, I am hopeless.
If christ seeks you, He can't see me.
If in your prayers he speaks to you.
He's dead silent with me.
If God is dead, then he was never there.
If God was real,
God would care.
Carina Fosse
the 7th of Febuary, 2008
Is There a Pill?
Is there a pill to make it go away?
Is there a chance the pain is here to stay?
the pain is oh so real
it's all that I can feel
Why do I want to live another day?
March 9th, 2009
Is there a chance the pain is here to stay?
the pain is oh so real
it's all that I can feel
Why do I want to live another day?
March 9th, 2009
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Fuck DADT!
Don't Ask, Don't Tell, Don't Be, Don't Exist, Lie!
Don't share who are, just resist, Deny!
You can't openly serve for our country, Why?
Don't be open, go back in the closet!
Your not hetero enough to fight, where is the logic?
It makes no sense and it's about time we stop it.
Your too gay to protect our nation,
This is brainless discrimination.
How exactly is sexuality relevant to a military situation?
You can't be a soldier, because you're too queer.
You can't fight for our honor, choose a new career.
I can't understand it, What exactly do they fear?
That you might spread gay cooties on the other army boys?
That you'll be applying eyeliner when you batallion deploys?
That you'll misuse your guns as anal sex toys?
This is absolutly ridiculous!
Let's get rid of this.
This ignorant law is painfully ludicrous.
How many skilled technicians need to be discharged?
It's a violation of civil rights, that we have fought for so hard.
Freedom is so important, please don't disregard.
Our Army needs able troops, can't they comprehend?
Because of ignorant fears, brave Americans can't serve and defend.
Because of homophobia, our military is now weakened.
This law must be put to an end!
Carina FosseMay 12th, 2009
Don't share who are, just resist, Deny!
You can't openly serve for our country, Why?
Don't be open, go back in the closet!
Your not hetero enough to fight, where is the logic?
It makes no sense and it's about time we stop it.
Your too gay to protect our nation,
This is brainless discrimination.
How exactly is sexuality relevant to a military situation?
You can't be a soldier, because you're too queer.
You can't fight for our honor, choose a new career.
I can't understand it, What exactly do they fear?
That you might spread gay cooties on the other army boys?
That you'll be applying eyeliner when you batallion deploys?
That you'll misuse your guns as anal sex toys?
This is absolutly ridiculous!
Let's get rid of this.
This ignorant law is painfully ludicrous.
How many skilled technicians need to be discharged?
It's a violation of civil rights, that we have fought for so hard.
Freedom is so important, please don't disregard.
Our Army needs able troops, can't they comprehend?
Because of ignorant fears, brave Americans can't serve and defend.
Because of homophobia, our military is now weakened.
This law must be put to an end!
Carina FosseMay 12th, 2009
Labels:
Bi,
civil rights,
current events,
gay,
lesbian,
LGBT,
media and technology,
military,
poems,
poetry,
protest
Monday, May 11, 2009
2007
2007
Give and take
subjected lives
The crave for war
never dies
Humans as trade
a nations investment
Misguided warfare
only fueling resentment
Excused target
Islamic Terroism
Blind devotion
a soldiers heroism
Political interference
a foreign civil war
the recurring question,
What are we fighting for?
Imposing values of corrupt politicians
only further enraging a timeless confliction
-Carina Fosse
-September 12th, 2007
Give and take
subjected lives
The crave for war
never dies
Humans as trade
a nations investment
Misguided warfare
only fueling resentment
Excused target
Islamic Terroism
Blind devotion
a soldiers heroism
Political interference
a foreign civil war
the recurring question,
What are we fighting for?
Imposing values of corrupt politicians
only further enraging a timeless confliction
-Carina Fosse
-September 12th, 2007
Labels:
2007,
bush,
current events,
iraq,
media and technology,
poems,
poetry,
politics,
war
Foreclosure
As Wall Street crashes
Main Street is left in ashes
Burning homes
that the bank now owns
no hope for loans
Fannie Mae, Freddie Mac
corruption
with government back
Near Trillion dollar bailout plans
to aid investors
and those in foreign lands
The American consumer needs to spend
ease their fear of the crisis at hand
Too little, too late
a topic for debate
We didn't have time to wait.
-Carina Fosse-
-10-10-2008-
Main Street is left in ashes
Burning homes
that the bank now owns
no hope for loans
Fannie Mae, Freddie Mac
corruption
with government back
Near Trillion dollar bailout plans
to aid investors
and those in foreign lands
The American consumer needs to spend
ease their fear of the crisis at hand
Too little, too late
a topic for debate
We didn't have time to wait.
-Carina Fosse-
-10-10-2008-
Labels:
current events,
economy,
finance,
foreclosure,
media and technology,
poems,
poetry,
politics,
wall street
There is No Oasis
blurry and surreal,
but way to lost to care
dazed in this hazy fog
my vision unclear
hoping to get through this smog
I'm sickened and I'm nautious
but there is no fresh air
sweltering sun,
heat stroke and psychosis
crawling in the dessert sands
famished and desperate
salvation is out of my hands
drained, dry and dehyrdrated
there is no oasis
there is no air
no possibilty
no chance for me to breathe
there is no oasis,
no waterfalls
no sparkly palm trees
there is no hope
there is no need for me to care
I'll never know the truth
because, there is no air
there is no going back
there are no new places
there are no more options
and there is no oasis
-Carina Fosse-
26.02.09
Cliche Happy Poem
embrace every morning
appreciate every day
try to ensure
that every day can be this way
live life by the moment
ponder every thought
let yourself go...
just don't get caught
be yourself
be a friend
always try to do good
because it will come back to you
in the end
live life to the fullest,
life is about giving
appreciate the little things
because it's the little things in life
that make it worth living
Carina Fosse
261008
Monday, May 4, 2009
Internet Infiltration
Internet technology is to agressive
mind polluting, controlling
dominating and paroling
obsessive
It can make you crazy and disturbed
leave you in agitated confusion
like a hallucinogen
perturbed
It is a dangerous linking of information
empowering thieves, burning feeds
cookies and seeds
infiltration
mind polluting, controlling
dominating and paroling
obsessive
It can make you crazy and disturbed
leave you in agitated confusion
like a hallucinogen
perturbed
It is a dangerous linking of information
empowering thieves, burning feeds
cookies and seeds
infiltration
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Thursday, April 30, 2009
Haze
The polluted haze around my brain
the cloud thickens and drives me insane
when will it rain?
When will I change?
the cloud thickens and drives me insane
when will it rain?
When will I change?
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Fuck Me If I'm Wrong
Fuck the world and it's thick fog of ignorance!
Fuck stupid people who have no tolerance.
Fuck hatred and fuck greed!
Fuck everyone who can't see
that diversity is what we need.
Fuck everybody that is stuck on their cloud.
Fuck people who fear change because they're too proud.
Fuck genocide and fuck religious war.
Fuck all those who think they know
what we are fighting for.
Fuck the homophobic and fuck all the racists.
Fuck airport security for "profiling" terroists.
Fuck people who claim to be accepting.
Fuck the people who look in the other direction.
Fuck religious leaders and fuck politicians.
Fuck muslim extremists and trigger happy christians.
Fuck the chosens ones who call themselves the elite.
Fuck all religious activists
who don't practice what they preach.
Fuck anybody who is offended by this.
Fuck you all,
because without eachother we couldn't exsist.
Fuck it all, we have to get along!
and you know what...
Fuck me if I'm wrong!
--Carina Fosse--
-24-02-09-
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Sunday, April 19, 2009
I'm not a Butterfly, If I've Never Flown
Nourished and protected, safe external womb
In my cocoon, I will not sprout my own wings
If I don't learn to fly, here will be my tomb
Bound like a marionette, captured by strings
Under their control, these wires imprison me
Tied to these ropes, I can't experience things
Under their control, these wires imprison me
Tied to these ropes, I can't experience things
I need to crack open my shell and break free
Break out of this egg, see the world on my own
Escape before there is no world left to see
Break out of this egg, see the world on my own
Escape before there is no world left to see
I'm only a puppet, I can't stand alone
I'm not an eagle, if I stay in my nest
I'm not a butterfly, If I've never flown
I'm not an eagle, if I stay in my nest
I'm not a butterfly, If I've never flown
Carina Fosse
17.04.09
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Epistemology, Simply
what you believe, what you know to be true
knowledge is beliefs and truths, justified
it can not be knowledge if it can be denied
true knowledge can never be taught to you
Carina Fosse
-11-09-2009-
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Stones
I know not to burn bridges,
but I still seem to clutter my paths
I know how to put out the fires,
but I'll get stuck, knee deep in ash
Every mountain I climb
is just another stone
blocking my path
my path back home
Every bump I hit
I'll bring it along
Every rock I carry
makes me strong
I pick up every pebble
every stone, every boulder
I just keep adding to the weight
the weight on my shoulders
every rock I pick up
keeps weighing me down
But I'll never let them go
even if they make me drown
My collection of stones,
my past , my story
my tradegies and triumphs
my sadness, my glory
I'm attached to my stones
I treasure my collection
what every stone represents
I have no recollection
my stones are a part of me
I cannot deny
I'll carry these stones
until the day I die
---Carina Fosse---
12.10.2008
I Want It All
I WANT IT ALL
I got something
but it's not enough
I get nothing
but a tease and a touch
I don't want everything
I wan't it all
I ask for nothing
but I feel it call
I feel passion
I feel lust
but this strange desire
I most definitely can't trust
Inspired, yet
sickened by my thoughts
wanting to come out
but don't wanna get caught
Desire so strong
provoking my fears
erotic and wrong?
I've wanted it for years
Maybe I'm all messed up
maybe I need to feel alive
maybe all my desires
don't need to collide
Offer it to me
Don't make me decide
as strong as it is
I still haven't tried
Carina Fosse
August, 2000
I got something
but it's not enough
I get nothing
but a tease and a touch
I don't want everything
I wan't it all
I ask for nothing
but I feel it call
I feel passion
I feel lust
but this strange desire
I most definitely can't trust
Inspired, yet
sickened by my thoughts
wanting to come out
but don't wanna get caught
Desire so strong
provoking my fears
erotic and wrong?
I've wanted it for years
Maybe I'm all messed up
maybe I need to feel alive
maybe all my desires
don't need to collide
Offer it to me
Don't make me decide
as strong as it is
I still haven't tried
Carina Fosse
August, 2000
Friday, April 3, 2009
A True Leader (Barack Obama)
he speaks with such certainty of a vision so clear
he has a dream and like Martin,
he knows how to get there
he radiates hope that a change is gonna come
he has a plan and give us all hope
that we have needed for so long
we shall overcome, we shall win this race
we will hear the sweet sound
the sweet sound of amazing grace
this new grassroots movement has stretched across this earth
so many people, with so many reasons
all pray for a political rebirth
he's a modern day hero and he is a true leader
he reaches out to everyone
from the homeless to the blog readers
he took us from muddy waters to mountains high
crossed valleys deep and rivers wide
change can happen, if we try
from the roots, through all the struggles and all the grief
from the civil rights movement
to a black Commander in Chief
the world is changing, he is proving it to us
he is now sworn into presidency in god we trust
he is making history and brings us hope from fear
whatever happens down the road, remember that we have made it here
Swing low sweet chariot because change has come
We have gathered and we have won!
but at the same time change has just begun
Change is gonna come
Change can happen
and Change has begun
carina fosse
21-03-09
GET OUT
Your out of my life
But still on my mind
Your this empty feeling
That will hopefully go away with time
This churning feeling at the bottom of my gut
An itchy scab formed from a tiny cut
Your out of sight
But your still all I see
Worrying about you
Still keeps me in misery
I want you out of my aching head
I’m sick of wondering if your dead
Get Out of my skull
Get Out of my mind
Get Out of my heart
Or get back in my life
I cannot be with you
I wouldn’t survive
I don’t want to see you
I just want to know that your alive
I’m sick of not knowing where you are
Except unreachable and incredibly far
Your driving me insane
You still cause me pain
When will this change?
Will you ever get out of my fucking brain?
Your constant tapping at my bone
We haven’t spoken,
but please leave me alone!
Get Out of my skull
Get Out of my mind
Get out of my heart
Or get back in my life
---> Carina Fosse
But still on my mind
Your this empty feeling
That will hopefully go away with time
This churning feeling at the bottom of my gut
An itchy scab formed from a tiny cut
Your out of sight
But your still all I see
Worrying about you
Still keeps me in misery
I want you out of my aching head
I’m sick of wondering if your dead
Get Out of my skull
Get Out of my mind
Get Out of my heart
Or get back in my life
I cannot be with you
I wouldn’t survive
I don’t want to see you
I just want to know that your alive
I’m sick of not knowing where you are
Except unreachable and incredibly far
Your driving me insane
You still cause me pain
When will this change?
Will you ever get out of my fucking brain?
Your constant tapping at my bone
We haven’t spoken,
but please leave me alone!
Get Out of my skull
Get Out of my mind
Get out of my heart
Or get back in my life
---> Carina Fosse
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Pantoum of an Orchid
sprawling like an orchids roots
stretching for morning air
enlightened with the sunshine
a blossomed red lotus
stretching for the morning air
emerging from the water
a blossomed red lotus
revitalized and refreshed
emerging from the water
mind and soul cleansed
revitalized and refreshed
clarity is understanding
mind and soul cleansed
seeking true nirvana
clarity is understanding
steering the wheel of Dharma
seeking true nirvana
underneath the Bodhi Tree
steering the wheel of Dharma
my truth empowers me
underneath the Bodhi Tree
I ponder my truth and fantasy
my truth empowers me
I walk the path chosen for me
I ponder my truth and fantasy
I am understanding my destiny
I walk the path chosen for me
I am on an envigorating high
I am understanding my destiny
reaching for air to blossom
I am on an envigorating high
the true nature of phenomena
reaching for air to blossom
sprawling like an orchids roots
the true nature of phenomena
enlighted with the sunshine
------>Carina Fosse<------
----30-03-09----
stretching for morning air
enlightened with the sunshine
a blossomed red lotus
stretching for the morning air
emerging from the water
a blossomed red lotus
revitalized and refreshed
emerging from the water
mind and soul cleansed
revitalized and refreshed
clarity is understanding
mind and soul cleansed
seeking true nirvana
clarity is understanding
steering the wheel of Dharma
seeking true nirvana
underneath the Bodhi Tree
steering the wheel of Dharma
my truth empowers me
underneath the Bodhi Tree
I ponder my truth and fantasy
my truth empowers me
I walk the path chosen for me
I ponder my truth and fantasy
I am understanding my destiny
I walk the path chosen for me
I am on an envigorating high
I am understanding my destiny
reaching for air to blossom
I am on an envigorating high
the true nature of phenomena
reaching for air to blossom
sprawling like an orchids roots
the true nature of phenomena
enlighted with the sunshine
------>Carina Fosse<------
----30-03-09----
The Blast
I crawled through withered ash
your charred corpse lies in the past
beneath the ashes
as the fire passes
buried under residue from the Blast
digging out from the wreck
the stench of burning flesh
impossible conditions
a hopeless mission
I’m scrambling through this mess
a nuclear genocide
fighting for mankind
I left you to die
so I could survive
How could I ever leave you behind?
--->Carina Fosse<---
-26-03-09-
Our World Our Hate
Our World, Our Hate
A small amount of hate lies inside us all.
This hate can dwell, consume and divide us all.
You may not show it, hate is not always something you share.
Discomfort, judgement, pride and prejudice are all because of fear.
Please, Stop passing this fear to our children. Remember this hate has been taught.
It was passed down from generations of neighbors that have fought.
Hate has seperated us, slaughtered us and enslaved us.
We hate for of our god, because Satan has craved us.
Hate breeds, plagues, lingers and remains.
Hate is only passed on, so we must make a change.
Change isn't just gonna come, we have to make it happen.
Break this murderous cycle and put down our weapon.
It's a tremendous challenge to stop all the wars caused by hate,
but we can make a change, we do choose our world's fate.
Teach our children that we are all different, special and unique.
Take notice of our judgements and watch how we speak.
Embrace our cultures, our foods and our arts.
Open our minds, taste the fruits of our world and open our hearts.
If we could understand our differences and agree to disagree.
Imagine how much better our world would be.
------>Carina Fosse<------
-- March 17th, 2009 --
Smothering the Flame
Raging flames to wilted ash
That inferno could never last
Molten lava to stone cold rock
The fire in your eyes is now just dark
Our fire once burned with fury, rage and lust
Our burning passion is now dry as dust
You became too engulfed in the flame between us
But just like fire needs oxygen, we needed trust
You can’t control a fire
and it’s too hard to tame
So you suffocated me
just like the flame
In your attempts to keep this blaze alive
You just put it out with all your lies
That glorious flame that sparked our fire
The emotion, the passion and the sizzling desire
You tried to protect it, but you tried too hard
Now we’re both burnt out, scorched and charred
You did all you could to save the fire we shared
But you were smothering the flame, it had no air
You cant control a fire
and it's to hard to tame
So you suffocated me
just like the flame
The fire weakened
with every tear that I cried
Slowly extinguishing the flame,
until the fire died
well... we tried
Carina Fosse
26.03.09
Monday, March 30, 2009
Armor
I can see through you
see through your lies
you put on so much armor
but it's no disguise
your secrets are buried under your flesh
to dig them up is your last wish
you never ask for pity
yet you shame yourself
ashamed of yourself
you never ask for help
the pain inside lingers like purgatory
unsettled and unresolved
an untold story
see through your lies
you put on so much armor
but it's no disguise
your secrets are buried under your flesh
to dig them up is your last wish
you never ask for pity
yet you shame yourself
ashamed of yourself
you never ask for help
the pain inside lingers like purgatory
unsettled and unresolved
an untold story
--Carina Fosse--
Across This Vast Ocean Pt. 1
Across this vast ocean, my spirit is being snatched.
I've floated away, so alone and detached.
I've crossed this ocean in an effort to move foward.
Yeah, I'm on a path, but what's that path headed toward?
Uncertainty has led me here and uncertainty draws me back.
My will keeps me here and it's to late to retract.
There is an ocean between us cluttered with wreckage.
I tell you we can cross it but you never get the message.
This ocean is tremendous and I'm on the other side.
Crossing it may seem impossible, if you've never tried.
Carina Fosse
10102007
I've floated away, so alone and detached.
I've crossed this ocean in an effort to move foward.
Yeah, I'm on a path, but what's that path headed toward?
Uncertainty has led me here and uncertainty draws me back.
My will keeps me here and it's to late to retract.
There is an ocean between us cluttered with wreckage.
I tell you we can cross it but you never get the message.
This ocean is tremendous and I'm on the other side.
Crossing it may seem impossible, if you've never tried.
Carina Fosse
10102007
Across this Vast Ocean pt. 2
Across this vast ocean, my spirit has been snatched.
I've floated far away, so alone and detached.
I gaze across this ocean for a glimpse of reality now lost.
My hope is shattered and this is the cost.
Saying goobye was brutal, your face was so final.
Everything was so unsettled and I left in denial.
Your blame and my guilt sinks us in this ocean.
The weight and the burden anchors me from motion.
The ocean between us becomes ever more vast.
The magic between us has become the past.
In this vast ocean hope drifts away.
In this vast ocean our love is astray.
There is something greater than this vast ocean standing in our way.
So, across this vast ocean, I will stay.
Carina Fosse
10102007
I've floated far away, so alone and detached.
I gaze across this ocean for a glimpse of reality now lost.
My hope is shattered and this is the cost.
Saying goobye was brutal, your face was so final.
Everything was so unsettled and I left in denial.
Your blame and my guilt sinks us in this ocean.
The weight and the burden anchors me from motion.
The ocean between us becomes ever more vast.
The magic between us has become the past.
In this vast ocean hope drifts away.
In this vast ocean our love is astray.
There is something greater than this vast ocean standing in our way.
So, across this vast ocean, I will stay.
Carina Fosse
10102007
my world far away
All life's little things
always missing out on them
every happening
the births of children
the weddings unattended
funerals of friends
my world far away
an ocean between my life
where ever I stay
----> Carina Fosse
always missing out on them
every happening
the births of children
the weddings unattended
funerals of friends
my world far away
an ocean between my life
where ever I stay
----> Carina Fosse
HEROIN!
Heroin...
why do you exist?
Heroin...
why can't people resist
the bitter sweet taste of your poison.
Your a morbid curse that nobody would have chosen.
Heroin...
your like a vampires bite,
spreading evil through their veins
rushing inside, but still as night.
You torment minds, making them deranged,
but without you, they become estranged.
Your power, your fury.
Their weakness, their purity.
Dirty spike, disgusting truth,
troubled souls, innocent youth.
Heroin...
I'm enraged by your sins.
Your an intricate game
that nobody can win.
Zombifying those I know
and luring them to your potent flow.
Heroin...
why do people crave your rabid injection?
Heroin...
why do people glorify your lethal infection?
Heroin...
Why did you take him from me?
Heroin...
why do you create such misery?
Heroin...
like Satan you claimed his soul!
Heroin...
You possesed him, you took control!
Heroin...
you took it all, until there was nothing left!
Heroin...
You even took his last gasping breath!
SMACK!
You are death!
---------------->> Carina Fosse
why do you exist?
Heroin...
why can't people resist
the bitter sweet taste of your poison.
Your a morbid curse that nobody would have chosen.
Heroin...
your like a vampires bite,
spreading evil through their veins
rushing inside, but still as night.
You torment minds, making them deranged,
but without you, they become estranged.
Your power, your fury.
Their weakness, their purity.
Dirty spike, disgusting truth,
troubled souls, innocent youth.
Heroin...
I'm enraged by your sins.
Your an intricate game
that nobody can win.
Zombifying those I know
and luring them to your potent flow.
Heroin...
why do people crave your rabid injection?
Heroin...
why do people glorify your lethal infection?
Heroin...
Why did you take him from me?
Heroin...
why do you create such misery?
Heroin...
like Satan you claimed his soul!
Heroin...
You possesed him, you took control!
Heroin...
you took it all, until there was nothing left!
Heroin...
You even took his last gasping breath!
SMACK!
You are death!
---------------->> Carina Fosse
Polluted
fragile and frail
but eager to stray
better to have a good time
and be in harms way
misjudgement of character
or attraction to swine
was it decision
or weakness to decline
hazed perception
polluted mind
outnumbered
weak and confined
unutterable actions
guilt unjustified
unsettled disgust
socially denied
plagued by scathe
pained to remind
irremovable dirt
fear redefined
burden of filth
permeable grime
penetrated by
an altering crime
Carina Fosse
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